Social anxiety, a subject I wish would be talked about more. I tend to deal with it A LOT with different things. I wanted to talk about that today. Not going to lie I was having anxiety posting about anxiety lol. Just because I know people all have different views on it. Whether its mild or severe. We all handle it differently and that doesn’t make us any less or any more. I would like to think and hope that whoever reads about my experiences (which I still deal with to this day) and how I like to handle it, it will help them understand they aren’t alone. When I think about social anxiety I think about it as having tiny little conversations with yourself in your head over and over again. Where I have it the most is being out surrounded by people I don’t know and talking in front of people. I can’t tell you how many times I have turned down my friends when they ask if I want to go out and have drinks at bars. Yes it can’t be fun sometimes but only when I go with people I feel comfortable with or if I’m being honest, getting drunk and I HATE that. I don’t like when I have to have a few drinks in me to lighten up and feel comfortable. When I’m out or before I even get to where I’m going I start to go through scenarios in my head like “omg do I look ok?” “is that person staring at me?” “everyone is judging me” “Is he going to come up and talk to me?” “how do I start and continue a conversation?”. Literally thats what goes through my head EVERY.SINGLE.TIME. Im always afraid of getting left behind and I’m just standing there alone because I don’t know how to communicate with people sometimes lol. Its dumb things like that, that make me just want to stay home where I’m comfortable. Sometimes I’ll be out and I’m not enjoying myself so i’ll come home and cry because I felt stupid. Also talking in front of people I go through the same thing. I have to sit and think to myself, thats not how its always going to be stop talking down on yourself and enjoy life. Enjoy the fun with your friends don’t let something like this bother you and stop you from anything. Im lucky to have friends who actually understand where I’m coming from and why I get like that. They never judge me and always have such great advice for me and calm me down. They are the ones who make me realize that its okay to not always have to go out to enjoy yourself. If being at home or somewhere that you feel comfortable is what you like then do it an they’ll risk it for me. Its hard for me to stay confident with myself all the time and always be positive. Having people like that in your life is SO important. You will learn that not everyone will understand what its like to have social anxiety and thats okay. If you can find people to just vent to and know they won’t hold it against you, keep them. Another thing that helps me to is music. I will BLAST that shit and forget about anything else. Finding ways to calm yourself down from all of the stress you put yourself through helps so much, that is my number 1 rule. Remember to always stay true to yourself, if you don’t want to do things that you know isn’t you and you aren’t comfortable its okay not to do them. You’re not a loser or dumb for feeling that way. The whole reason I wanted to talk about this is because this is an everyday struggle I go through and I always feel dumb for feeling that way. But people tell me all the time that its okay. I have sat and cried all night because I’m 22 and I should be out having fun. But thats why I am picky when it comes to my friends and who I want in my life. They all make me feel comfortable. They get me and sometimes I wonder why they are still friends with me because I feel like I’m the boring one lol. Anyways, I hope this helps other feel better about themselves and that no one is perfect and everyone is always going through SOMETHING.


If you made it to the end thanks for reading the thoughts that go through my head sometimes. This is like a big diary for me lol. LOVE YOU ALL!!!!


So this year I decided I want to post different kinds of things on my blog! I will still post fashion/beauty posts but I want to switch it up a little bit!! That means in todays post I wanted to do the 25 random facts tag. This is usually a youtube kind of thing but since I’m not quite there.. yet.. I felt like it would be cool to do on here! I just googled random questions these “youtubers” usually answer for this tag. I want to bring in more traffic to my blog and doing something like this will help people know a little more about me! Hope 2018 is treating ya’ll well so far!! Leave some suggestions on what else I should post this year!! 


1. Are you named after anyone?

  • For the longest time my parents told me I was named after a football player named Dan Marino. I was like wow thanks for naming me after a dude guys lol. Still don’t know if that’s true or not! I will never know!

2. Do you have any kids?

  • I do not.

3. If you were another person,would you be a friend of yourself?

  • I actually have never thought about this until I saw this question. I would like to think I would be!!

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

  • Omg do I!?? Of course I do lol and sometimes I don’t think some people get my sarcasm and humor which makes me laugh. You can’t always take everything seriously you need to have some fun once in awhile right!?

5. What is the first thing you notice about people?

  • I think their attitude and how they treat others. Oh and a smile lol.

6. What is your eye color?

  • Gold(ish)

7. Scary movie or happy ending?

  • I do LOVE a good scary movie because I like that adrenaline but I do like happy endings to. Guess it depends on what mood I’m in that day lol.

8. What’s the furthest you’ve been from home?

  • Only have been on a plane once in my life and it was to some random city in New York for a baseball tournament with the family.

9. Where were you born?

  • Murrieta, CA

10. What are your hobbies?

  • Blogging!

11. Do you have any pets?

  • 2 dogs! They live with my dad so I don’t see them everyday): But I love when I do get to see them. They are mutts and the cutest things ever.

12. Do you have any siblings?

  • 3 brothers! Grew up with all boys but wouldn’t have had it any other way!

13. Who was your best friend?

  • Who was? More like who is and still are! I have more than one best friend and they all know who they are💖

14. How tall are you?

  • Last time I measured myself it said I was 5’4 lol.

15. Favorite food?

  • I could eat Mexican food all the time lol. But I always like to try new things!

16. How many countries have you visited?

  • Sadly none but I want to change that!!!

17. What was your favorite/least favorite subject in high school?

  • I liked taking graphic design and I honestly didn’t like anything else😂 I wasn’t one who liked school that much..

18. Favorite Animal? Drink? Perfume?

  • Favorite animal: Dog.  Favorite drink: Green tea.  Favorite perfume: Current fav. Bombshell from V.S

19. What sports do you/have you played?

  • I was a cheerleader for 9 years. And yes I do consider It a sport!

20. Favorite youtubers at the moment?

  • Kathleenlights, Casey Holmes, Jenna Marbles, Remi Cruz, Vlogsquad lol.

21. How many BF/GF have you had?

  • 2 BF

22. Favorite childhood memory?

  • Always taking vacations to visit family.

23. How would you describe your fashion sense?

  • I think I would describe it as comfortable/casual, chic, street style.

24. What phone do you have?

  • Iphone basic as heck. I don’t think I’ll ever stop using apple products lol.

25. What is your favorite song at the moment?

  • It is so hard choosing 1 favorite song because I love music so much but right now I’d have to say Harry Styles cover of Girl Crush by Little Big Town. Give that a listen his voice is amazing.

Hi guys! Happy New Year! 2018, I can’t believe its here. So crazy how fast time flies. I feel like 2017 just left in a blink of an eye lol. As I scroll through all of the pictures and videos I saved I just can’t help but smile. I honestly had an amazing year. All of my friends and family are what made it so great. I just am so thankful and grateful for the people I have in my life. They stick with me through thick and thin. I also have met more amazing people in the last year and got close to them as well. Making new friendships is always the best. So many memories were made in the past year and I wanted to share them in todays post! It might be a little long because I wanted to talk about my favorite memories for every month. Whether they were traveling somewhere, hanging around town or whatever. I tried to always capture something each month. I love the life I live and yes I do complain sometimes and wish some things were different but in this new year I want to try and make those dreams become reality. Im a big believer in dreams and working hard to make things happen. I’ve learned that things just don’t get handed to you, you have to WORK for it. I work hard for the things I get to do and I’m thankful I have the opportunity NOW to do them. I always love sharing things that I enjoy, thats why I made my blog, so I can put them out there for other people to see who I am! I may enjoy things that others don’t but thats okay. Thats why I love the friendships I have because they get me and understand me and are just as crazy as I am lol. I love how we all enjoy doing things together. I can not wait for this new year. As everyone says EVERY year but this is a year of change, no regrets and just having fun. E N J O Y yourself. Be a better person. Do things you’re scared to do. Push yourself. All the things I want to stick by this year. Living a happy healthy life. Hope you enjoy this one!



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Vlogmas days 9&10 are up and ready!! I finally get to reunite with my sister!!!! I have known this girl basically my whole life so we call each other sister lol. We do a little christmas shopping and then she came with me to get my christmas tree! The day before my mom and I literally went to 3 different Christmas tree farms! They are so short and skinny this year and that didn’t help how picky my mom is! lol. But at last we found one! There really isn’t much more to say about this vlog, this is literally a look at my everyday life guys! Im not that exciting of a person lmao. But I hope you’re enjoying them anyways!(:

Woohoo Vlogmas Day 8 is now live! DISNEYLAND. I have mentioned it about a million times but guys Christmas time at disney??? BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL. By the time we got to disneyland it was already dark outside, gotta love daylight savings!! But I tried my best to get a lot of footage for you guys. May not be the best but I TRIED. Also I know I skipped over day 7 but in my last vlog I mentioned how I won’t be vlogging that day so that is why there is no day 7. I know how to count I swear lol. I put a lot of damn effort into this vlog so I hope you like it! Now I know why “Youtubers” don’t go to bed until like 2 in the morning lol. Okay Im done rambling here is DAY 8↓↓