Yay!! Vlogmas Days 5 and 6 are now up!! Day 5 I went to go see my grandma, my dad and my puppies! I was so happy to see everybody especially my dogs since I don’t live with them. They always get so excited every time I go over lol. And then on Day 6 I just went to work (Of course I love adulting) but I showed you guys a little peak at my Christmas decor I have up in my room. I will be doing a full BLOG post on that soon so don’t worry. Alright so I won’t be posting a vlog tomorrow, I explain why at the end of this vlog. But I will have one up on saturday all about D I S N E Y L A N D. I also want to do a whole blog post on Disneyland during Christmas time so that will be going up soon too! Im so excited. Im like a little kid getting excited for disneyland lol. Its my favorite place and the way they have it decorated for Christmas is HEAVEN. So be ready for that! Enjoy Vlogmas Days 5&6 and a little clip of day 7 lol.↓↓

Helloooo! Okay so I have decided since I don’t think i’ll have enough footage for a vlog every single day that I’m just going to combine some days. Now I won’t do it for all of them but just the days I know i’ll be at work all day and can’t vlog. So thats what todays is about!! In day 3 I hung out with some friends in LA. That was a lot of fun, I didn’t vlog when I was actually there but none the less I had a great time lol. And then the next day I was just hanging out with my mom and then of course my girl court came around and we all went Christmas decor shopping. Can never have too many decorations for Christmas right?? Lol. It was fun. So yeah that is pretty much all I have for these ones. Enjoy!!↓↓

Vlogmas Day 2 is now up on my youtube channel!! It’s a chill one, all I did was go to work and then came home lol but my best friend came back in town!! We were all suppose to be getting the Christmas tree but that didn’t end up happening ): So we decided to do what we usually do.. went to TARGET. You might be seeing a lot of target runs in these vlogs because thats what we like to do when we have no other plans and I mean who doesn’t love target?? Lol. The rest of the night I just came home and hung out with my mom and thats pretty much it! I promise I have more stuff planned in future videos!! I want to make these vlogs fun! But I explain how most of them will be of me just going to work lol. I will force myself to go out and do stuff! Lol. Alright enjoy Day 2!↓↓

Happy D E C E M B E R everybody!!! Ahhhh I can’t believe we’re already here! The last month of the year!! And another one of my favorite months lol. Okay so you’re probably wondering what the heck “Vlogmas” is, I have youtubers that I love to watch and most of them do this thing called Vlogmas every year in the month of December. You basically Vlog every single day up until Christmas day. I love watching vlogs, so I thought it would be fun for myself to attempt it! I will say my editing… not the best, but its fun! Hopefully towards the end my editing skills are a little better lol. Vlogging makes you want to actually go out and do fun things and since I have some stuff planned for this month I figured hey why not. Im an awkward person so they might be cringy to watch and have a laugh! Plus you get to see a different side of me. The side that isn’t posing for pictures and writing behind a computer screen. Now if you follow me on instagram or snapchat (which you should) then you see that side of me a little bit. Vlogs are everyday life! I hope to continue Vlogging for next year! Who knows, we’ll see lol. Make sure you subscribe to my youtube channel to see all these vlogs! I haven’t decided if I should post them everyday on here or just keep it over on my youtube channel, let me know what you think!! Love you all, I can’t wait to share all the ideas I have for posts this month! But for now enjoy Day 1 of my Vlogmas!! 

High School, a place where it’s the “best years of your life” for most or for some it’s not. A place where you start “finding yourself”, again for most it is and for most it’s not. Now I’m not going to sit here and say I had the worst time ever but I didn’t have the best time either. When people ask me if I miss high school my answer is always no. I don’t miss it. I have kept this to myself for so long because I didn’t know how to put it into words and I didn’t know if people would understand. So here it goes, I was always the quiet one and honestly I didn’t have a lot of friends. You would think being a cheerleader (yes I was one lol) i’d have plenty of friends but for me that wasn’t the case. I had maybe 1 or 2 friends I would always talk to and hang out with at school. I never had that big group of friends. Thinking back to it now its crazy. I would come home and just feel sad and depressed. I would sit there and think why don’t people like me? Why am I the loner? Why don’t I have friends like my brothers? They always had a big group of friends and I envied that SO much. I never went to parties or was social. Not until my senior year, I wasn’t a cheerleader anymore so I didn’t have that. My one friend I was close to moved. I had a boyfriend this year so I had that. I would hang out with his group of friends and go to parties only because I was basically the tag along. They were never really my friends. I didn’t know who I was. I had got bullied a couple times. I never really found myself in high school I was still trying to figure that out. Once I had graduated I felt kind of a relief. I didn’t have to think about going back to that place but I was still worried, is this how my life is going to be when I get older? No friends? No, that is not the case. But I was stuck in this slump and fell into this dark place for a couple months. I didn’t end up going to college and I didn’t have a job so I felt alone. I didn’t know what I was doing with my life. Until beauty school happened. I had went to beauty school about a year after I graduated high school. I was nervous as hell. I didn’t think I would make any friends because thats how it was in high school but I was wrong. Going to beauty school was probably the best decision I had made for myself. I met some amazing people there. We were all there for the same reason so it was nice too finally talk to people who understand you. It was nice to finally have people to hang out with and they actually enjoyed your company. But as I had said I didn’t realize what I was going through back in my high school days until about a year ago. Who I was then is not who I am now. I have definitely become a better version of myself. I let go of high school friendships I had thought cared about me but I was wrong. I have the most amazing group of friends right now in my life. Whether they are co workers, my friends that have been with me through thick and thin and those who I have just become close with in the last couple years. YOU ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE. It is so nice to have people who get you. People that are easy to talk to and I can be myself around and have a good laugh with. I don’t open myself up to a lot of people but I have found those who I can. They are all just as crazy as me and I love it lol. You live, learn and grow every single day. If you or someone you know is going through the same thing right now just know it ALWAYS gets better. I feel like I am in a good place right now, yeah I have my days but who doesn’t? We’re all human. Find your passion and do something you love because it can open so any doors. The older you get the more aware you become and the more you know what your worth and who you want in your life. Its okay to be that person who doesn’t have those high school “friends”. Make friends with people who actually care about you and enjoy your company. I don’t know if any of this had made any sense and I don’t know how many of you will understand and I didn’t make this post for anyone to feel “sorry” for me. I want people to know that you are not alone.